Assimilating the Mother Goddess My life has been entwined with the healing arts for over 9 years specifically in the field of experiential studies an ethnobotanical fascination with balancing a Holistic way of life through social relations. I enjoy working with individuals who share a reference to the whole body in all cultures and institutions; valuing the whole body/persons universal or spiritual expression. For 9 years now I have been travelling facilitating studying earth medicine and various healing systems with a home base in Toronto Ontario Canada. Most of my curriculum and one-on-one sessions have been working with women and witnessing their rise all over the world. The process has been very challenging and rewarding for me at times to be one of the many male stewards working alongside with females to anchor the goddess’s energies. I’ve learned she can be very destructive at times, but also loving to the male templates within me and the women who ventured to study the great work. Pain can always be found within our personal transformation, but in order to transform, we want to make the pain that we may see as darkness our ally; with full cooperation there's no need to hurt the body anymore.
My travels began with the studying of visionary cultures in places such as: Mexico (the Yucatan specifically, with Mayan elders sharing various healing tools and sacred initiations), Peru with the Chavin culture (sharing various plant medicines and rituals), Egypt with the Bedouins (researching various plants in the Sinai peninsula and sharing healing modalities in Cairo), Greece (sharing magical ceremonies on the islands of Corfu), Turkey (researching specific Pleiadian/star temples and gifting ancient healing tools along with a study on the flora), Italy ceremonial work specifically in pompeii (gifting energy treatments with various groups on various islands), Spain (walking the Camino de Santiago, a 30 day pilgrimage), Ecuador studying the holy Palo Santo trees and gifting treatments ,spending 40 days at the sivananda yoga ashram in Quebec Val Morin,Vancouver Canada researching the effects of Cannabinoids and the mary magdalene pilgrimage in France I have also traveled throughout the United States and other parts of Canada facilitating various treatments and workshops. I can be very passionate in allowing the universe to express itself through me creating nonphysical/metaphysical healing tools and grounding them into the physical, incorporating them into daily use. Most of the 9 years have been dedicated to an audience of youth ranging from the ages of 14 to 33. Everything I do can be so important to me, every thought every action I do my best to make sure its respecting all life on the planet and the universes. Some find me super intense as I am super demanding a high achieving being and expect the best from everyone around me. I focus super hard sometimes hours and days intending everything I can into every action and just throw myself into it. Because I work and focus from my heart I usually know what’s right for me straight away and trust with faith that I can get out right away when it becomes not.
Many Men have been asking me why I am so eager to support woman and the reasons why I have such strong values on equality for that gender. When a woman’s womb shines the whole earth shines along with her, its unquiet dance of stars shimmering within her Aura that makes me and my whole realty make sense to why my mere existence is allocated for this planet. I will answer as much as I can now from this man’s point of view and what I have discovered as I immersed myself in this schooling and when I say school I actually opened one up temporarily so I may learn firsthand. The center was based on the god-dess and the priestess; different woman came and traveled from all over the world in private and some not in private to teach me how to be a man. These women shared with me a code of behavior, certain social rules that are expected in the company of a woman. This school of etiquette for my personal transformation started right from the body and made its way into the bedroom. I Learned about the golden ratio size of my body the height and muscle tone accuracy, when and how often I should brush my teeth, clean my face, putting attention to the smells on my body, wearing the right oils, how to dress and proper integral body language when women are speaking to me sharing there medicine of knowledge. They always wanted my shirt off and pants wore low oiled up as I danced and did the dishes, cleaned the bathtubs and floors, cooked food did the laundry and carried books on my head at the same time to keep my spine straight head up and strong through the whole process, It was all one big trip inwards. I was used to giving energy healing session, past life journeys, Thai massage and living in the god space. This one woman would show up and flip it all that upside down and bring all that god space into the bedroom ground it out in a sensual way to show me I can be both, after this the woman just kept coming to visit me over and over again for 9 months straight. I started to figure it out that yes this is medicine the woman are powerful if not more powerful than any plant I have drank, any detox I have prepared for myself, more powerful that any geometric shape I have drawn, more powerful that any ancient language I have studied and all of that attention and love I have put in those sacred spaces and practices needed to be anchored in the same place when a woman spoke to me. When I got this they began to trust me more and they showed more as I surrendered and gave the control back to them. I learned how to kiss and where to kiss, how to speak and use my voice so it may be in splendor, where to touch and the length of time it takes to bring a women’s body into climax, all of this without sex or me releasing any fluids. The bedroom began to be there domain to release and let go as I just watched in amazement keeping it calm cool and relaxed through the whole process. This last part to mention is for my brothers, through sacred touch if you can teach yourself as a man to show her the magic is inside her body then all-woman on the planet will find the same. Then ask yourself did you have a good world when you died.
Not all men will go through a similar process than I have in fact for all my brothers reading this I can only assume that you would like to do it better and bigger that I ever could just like I would assume that everyone wants peace, Go for it the universe revolves around your kingship just it would revolve around me. We will uncover a lot through the masculine attitudes which have been working diligently to balance the two within and maintain an intimate aura restart. I can respect the differences and understand the male body to the best of my abilities but may not understand everything about females. In Egyptian mythology man was created with the staff to anchor or bring down the god energies (lines) or archetypal patterns to himself and the Earth and the female created with a womb or chalice the Ankh (Circular) that creates life within the material world; the god-dess templates reciprocating the masculine energies through her process and the rise to ascension. For myself I have always been in search of a glorious death, not the death one would think of but a death felt as an awakening or re-emerging into my divine masculine self. Some woman even served me up with this notion (you’re going to lose your testicles and Grow a set of ovaries). There was so much beauty in that statement only now the integration has created me being a solid role model for my strong healthy male attributes. Let’s now begin with the triumphant return of the Tantricas, they entered into my life vibrating great strength of the elemental spirit realms, water muses, Sirens, mermaids, witches and dancers of all sorts. 13 women came into my life from the early part of 2013 through to the end of 2014 to dance with my sky, star angels, aliens, geometric yogis and shamans. Some came to tear me down and descend me deep into the earth through the lower chakras, and some came to pick me back up. They showed up from all over the world to visit me some of these women were even celibate like myself and some not each carrying a specific frequency or belief system around sex, love, intimacy and secrets to the Physical and spiritual body connection. I would begin to feel and hear my cells singing as I began to develop an anchored communication system with my own body. The whole universes and brotherhood of light networks would join me as a solid citizen of the human body. It was not going to be easy for myself or the woman that came to usher me through this, as it has felt like I have been running from Queen Isis for thousands and thousands of years like a spoiled prince. I would find out quickly she was getting tired of picking of her sons Kleenex trails all over the planet and would eventually ground me; I would have to change in order for the god-dess to speak through this male body.
What I was about to discover while I was sitting on my throne of illusion godhood in the sky shocked me, there was so much about myself below I was missing and allot of older male template down there that needed to be dealt with. Parts of me were very resistant to opening and transcending those lower older thought paradigms knowing that they were keeping the planet and me dense and under control. Giving up that control was scary for me the mere notion of letting that go haunted me for so long, what I would do with myself or my existence and how would others react to a man being kind compassionate and supportive to woman and all life on the planet big or small. All of that god energy in the sky wanted to come down into the earth and play with the God-dess but feared I would be judged and not taken into her bounty of love. I would like to leave this reading with A Key- Everything that killed me emotionally made me feel alive. The shame and humiliation I went through when I had to face my destructive creative power was astonishing. I was so grateful to let all that control go and trusting that the Earth would take me back with certain conditions of being a better man and will continue to do so. If I don't there will always be a great team of people to check in with that will navigate me back, and that team can be called team light. All Through this I was just learning to love and be that divine man that all the woman were asking for, thanks for not giving up on me mother and I pray every second of my existence that the sisterhood continues to rise so myself and my brothers may continue to find our way home.